Life & Times of the Semi-Domesticated Irish Bear

How to explain it. I am not mad, but...I do realize that nothing is as it seems. In the end I do realize that Tammy didn't really want me, she just didn't want anyone else to have me. I confronted her on the discoveries and her response was flippant, petty, and full of hateful bile. I confronted her with the following: It's been brought to me that you have in fact lied about the Bonfire Lanni...remember kissing him? Corey...you DO remember the camper right? Or do you forget the make out session with Kris that Dan got on his phone? And afterward, you said the only time you met James was at the Bonfire and when you hooked up with him in August. Did you forget when you met him and Kris at the bar before the concert? Or the two times in May when his Father-in-law said you were at the house?? Did you forget meeting the other Dan for a date? Did you forget what REALLY happened with Mike the night he was at the house? According to him yo

Falling a bit behind again. Life happens and I wanted to organize my thoughts as well. It's amazing the cycles life takes. Last session with the counselor we discussed triggers. What triggers memories and specifically triggers of the ex. There was such a vast list of good and bad we mainly dealt with the odd ones. In particular, certain shows, like Falling Skies, Defiance. Those were shows that were "ours" to a degree. To the point I haven't watched them anymore. Chicken Burgers form Sam's cub...don't ask...it really is an odd thing. Red Lobster...which isn't an issue because Im not a seafood guy. But you never really realize how much of an impact someone has til you disconnect the threads from your life.  Again, this....in the end...is a VERY good thing. As evidenced by recent discoveries and a dispassionate look at things beginning to end with her. Some time from now I will look back and see that this was the best possible gift she could have ever g

It has been a tumultuous couple of weeks. Scrambling to get everything ready for my new place, helping my mom get the house situated, sessions with my counselor, and of course new revelations regarding the Ex. I like the layout of the new place, it has potential, I think here I can truly have a fresh start. I am short on furniture having foolishly sold it to Tam upon moving out. and her either tainting it, destroying it, or simply getting rid of it....but also, they are hers so she can pretty much do what she pleases. I've pretty much purged everything else from myself regarding her, I thing its good to start over on that as well. I am truly excited to be in this new place and instead of my very missed 'Boxer Day' I'm gonna roll with having a 'Kilt day' now...lol. Things are winding down now at my moms. Most of the big stuff is on it's way to Arizona now as I write this.  I'm happy she will have a fresh start too. She has been weighed down by a lot

"You cannot play God and wash your hands of the things you've created. Sooner or later the day comes, when you can't hide from the things that you've done anymore" Cmdr. William Adama This says alot about ownership. Something I have hidden from.....and even more surprising, something Tammy still does. It is amazing the things you find out about a relationship after it ends. Some not shocking, some very shocking. I now have tons of people...some I don't know well, or at all coming to me telling me things about her. Some are hard to believe, but fit with many things I knew or suspected. Is it all true? Is any of it true? I do not know.  What I do know is she had 2 major confessional talks with me and none of the things I am learning came up in either. They are things I see her doing, things I KNOW she is capable of. But did she in fact do them? Hmmm...not sure. it does upset me to a degree...if any of it is true because I had been very proud of her for be